Roman Ragazzi dead

i don't know why i have a fascination of when gay porn stars die. it's not the same for other actors. it wasn't until flicking through the channels and catching the Oscars In Memoriam clip that i found out Elizabeth Taylor died. sure, she was incredible in Who's Afraid Of Virginia Woolf but i really couldn't give a rat's arse about any film actor. except Brad Renfro, because he was fucking hot

but it's different for porn stars, and more so for gay porn stars. for some reason - i care

the first that fascinated me was Kyle McKenna. a baby-faced beefcake that looked like he head was about to exploded every time he took a cock in his arse. it was hot

Kyle Mckenna 

his IMDB bio says this:

"Kyle had a terribly sad childhood and had been estranged from his family for many years. When the Salt Lake City coroner's office finally tracked down his mother, she refused to claim his body. Friends took Kyle's remains and had them cremated. His ashes were strewn over some mountains where Kyle enjoyed hiking."

for a long list of dead porn stars and how they died up until 2007 go here. it's pretty interesting, then unfortunately followed by some shit from the bible

the latest actor to be chewed up and spat out is Roman Ragazzi. i'll call him by his real name, Dror Barak, because it's a much cooler name. 

Dror shot a few scenes for Colin O'Neal's new porn company but was promised no content would be released until he finished with his current employer - the Israeli embassy in New york. while still employed he was contact by a Mr Kirkham who wanted to fly him somewhere and shower him with money for some 'modelling' work. Dror agreed. but he was contacted under his new name Roman Ragazzi. Colin O'Neal didn't like that because he was under a contract. Dror ignored him and pursued the job, insisting to Kirkham he was not a prostitute

a short time later Dror exploded into fame when he was outed by the New York Post. he immediately resigned. 

it's alleged Mr Kirkham was outed him to the New York Post. there's also rumours the fake Kirkham is rival porn producer Michael Lucas. all this inflamed by a german dj, who soon became known as Logan McCree. 

did Lucas just want to ruin this new talent? 

did Collin O'Neal do it himself to kick start his new porn label?

it's in more detail here in Queerty. the comments below are a possible bitch fight between O'Neal and Kirkham/Lucas. but as entertaining as it is to read, all posts could just be all fake

who knows. either way, it's an interesting and Dror got severely fucked over. despite (or because of that) he soon became the biggest name in gay porn for 2007/2008 to be toppled by the former german dj, Logan McCree. utilising his skills as a former military trainer in the israeli army, Dror started him own personal training business

just a few days ago Dror was found dead from an apparent suicide. Queerty has the most detailed information here. there's some really nasty comments posted at the bottom. despite what you think attract people to start a career in porn, it's not all for the same dumb selfish reasons. this guy just seemed too naive and too trusting of the porn industry. the comments below are the same tired assumptions dickheads make about porn actors. like the sex industry, it attracts certain types of people, but it's not all junkies, insecure nutjobs and people down on their luck that everyone expects. these days it's a legitimate and very fast way to boost your career as an escort, personal trainer or even as a full time porn star.

also, it's a lot of fun. the extra business i gained from the first solo shoot i did more than quadrupled my income and paid for a month long overseas holiday. plus the notoriety and free beers and drugs i got showered when i went out. the only thing about it that haunts me too this day, 4 years later, is just about every week i hear from friends, "so i was jerking off to tumblr porn blogs and pics of you came up. great pics but it made me feel weird." i should get my shit together and do another one but in Australia the only porn shot here is mostly young pretty boy and twinky porn

in 2009, when Collin O'Neal was coming to Sydney to shoot a porno i was one of the people asked. i declined. i met O'Neal a year or two before in SF, it was only for a moment. i'm sure he asked every dumb whore in Sydney (and Melbourne), but he hounded again and i declined again. having just had my appendix removed a over a month before, i wasn't feeling too pretty about my shaved and newly growing belly still recovering from surgery. 

i had already shot another porn scene 2 weeks after surgery. i saw some of those early shots online and i wash't stupid enough to do it again. i got a call at 9am on a saturday morning asking if i could be there as one actor dropped out. hung over as all fuck (and most likely still drunk) i stupidly agreed. i looked like shit. i wasn't into the other guy. it was awful

no matter. Alex DeLarge did an awesome job in that video (he scores many points alone with the Clockwork Orange reference)

so i failed in porn. it's really because it's yet another thing i did without really trying, but i like to convince myself this is the reason...

...is my cock big enough?

is my brain small enough?

for you to make me a star...

give me a toot and i will sell you my soul

pull my strings and i'll go far